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Yup. My first blog ever. Nothing really motivated me to start blogging. Usually I don’t like to talk about myself. But this time it really hit me. Recently something I regret and it’s not reversible. I wished there was such thing as a time machine.

You’ve heard me say it. Everyone who knows me has heard me say it. “I’m very busy”. However, I have to admit that even though I AM very busy for work, I never forget to have fun whenever possible. You have a party? I’m IN! It’s perfectly logical that I need RELIEF, or else i’d go crazy. Unfortunately, there was something way more important than having fun that I forgot.

2 days ago I went to visit my grandpa at the hospital. He was connected to a few machines. Except the movement of his breathing, he wasn’t moving. His eyes were closed. Not knowing if he could listen to me or not, I started talking to him. And before I left, I said to him, “bye grandpa, I’ll come see you again.”

And that was it. He was gone the next day, very early in the morning. I didn’t know I only had so little time with him. I’ve never had a chance to really chat with him. Before his last stay in the hospital, my heart had sometimes wanted to go and visit him, but the rest of me was occupied with work and fun. I thought there was always time left. And I was looking forward to celebrating his 90th bday coming up in a month.

Now one picture appears in my mind all the time. He used to call my nickname and have a big smile on his face whenever he saw me. A smile that he seldom showed to anyone else.

Last time I had dinner with him was after my grandma’s funeral. I wish they’ve met again somewhere.

Grandpa, I miss you and I love you. Wherever you are, I hope you’re happy.

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